Beads of my Chaos

It was hard indeed, a change, a relocation quite unexpected in my life. Even though I am quite open to challenges that appear in my life, this time it shattered me. I was quite unsure when this came up, it did break open certain wounds that I never expected will ever appear in my life.
I was quite settled down in my space, it was like my safe house, but then again like tumbled down, I am pushed away from my comfort zone. The pain was quite shattering. It did misplace my mind. Even then not completely agreeing to the changes, I accepted it, because that was my nature. All i ever knew, from the very beginning of my life, is to get adapted.
I was so comfy with friends around, and a life that I always wanted with my beloved ones, but again I had to move on. My destiny seemed to have shifted from where I was. But my soul was contained there where I belonged.
I wondered why it always happens to me, the moment I feel like there is no more shifting and finally, I am settled, I am thrown quite far away from where I belong. And just leaving me scarred for a long time. Gradually the pain either takes me over or I conquer the pain and live with it forever.
I feel like I am just a robot in motion,
trying to figure out my notions,
but just flowing along with the tide…
the windows seem so different,
even when the sun shines the same…
the doors opened up to a world,
unknown to me.
The journey seems normal,
bu the path never collided with the one I wished for,
like the dandelion fragmented into the air,
pieces of me, scattered away in the breeze.

Unsure is my notions,
Unsure is my words which flow,
is it because I am cold,
Or is it because my heart is frozen.
I wondered as I wandered,
again in search of the same comfort,
I lost on my journey.

Yet again, all I knew is,
I will return to where i belong.
The place where i was nurtured and cared.
The arms where I belong,
but the wait is hard and grievous,
which indeed is breaking my patience
and my yearning for living.

Devoid of all feelings,
I live the present,
to conquer my future,
which I await the most.

Wilderness to be savoured

Image result for you and me

 

As my eyes look at you

I feel like looking at myself

a reflection of me

exist in you

as I look at you

I forget the world around me

all I need are those warm hugs

that excites me to the core

when I look at you

I feel like the world ceased for me

to be just yours,

as I see only you

blindfolded away from the outside world

only your voice reverberates in my ears

am I crazy, or it’s just the wilderness in me

craving to be savoured by you.

I love the darkness that you bring in

Image result for you and me love

Shadow me with your presence

Let me take a leap into you

you are the only one, my skin adorns

you are the only cloak I love to wear

love me like you bring me alive

touch me the way, you perspire my inner desires

worshipping each other as the embodiment of love

plunge into me, like you drink me up

I wanna be hooked up in you forever

as nothing could take my mind off from you

your love blind me, yet I love the darkness it bestows

as I see the light, better than ever with you in it.

 

The more I see, my heart floods with love…

Image result for the more I see you, my heart floods with love

 

You let me never defeat,

You walk beside me, upholding my courage

as you save me from drowning in my fears

I grab on to you, as you are the last resort for me,

you are the fulfilling promise of my life

that fills in me the blooming flowers

with you, a life is my dream

a dream, that I yearn the most

the more I see you,

my heart floods with love

unable to harness my feelings

my words trigger my fingers to open it, in the blank pages of my life

where your love is filling in all the colours

building a nest in my heart, you are living in me

like forever mine.

Born to be entwined

Image result for entwined as a single soul

Away as I go,

Leaving you to drift away

I kept looking back

even when I was strong enough to hold on

it is never easy, as I ever thought it would be

as we outgrew each other from the same root

slowly and steadily, entangling into a single soul

I couldn’t cut the roots away, as it began to bleed

even before the knife touched it

I let the branches outgrow to be a full-grown tree

that gifted the world, the fruit of true love.