Waiting ,until…it stops

No matter what I want to write,
the words are betraying me,
it tosses my mind,
into the agony,
which I wanna escape for a moment.
to hide the pain from the world,
as the pain, i suffer,
derails my life which is just a conspiracy
a pain I hide from the world,
who never knew me…
and took me for granted.
At this juncture,
I realised, that,
My heart aches too much,
that it might erupt my eyes…
and one day, I might explode,
like never before,
to be extinguished only by you.
Awaiting that moment,
I just wandered away,
like the stars awaiting,
for the weaning moon to appear in the sky,
to complete its existence.