I played with my life
Procrastinating everything I ever wanted to
Forgetting that time never waits for us
Everything I ever wanted I turned down
at a later stage
A stage which I never reached
where I could accomplish what I loved
Doing and neglecting my needs
My passion, My love, my interest
all dug under my responsibilities
I forgot to live but just breath to survive
AS I KNOW, AM JUST SURVIVING.
Fear of losing
Fear that engulfs my thoughts
Fear of being not me
Fear of being away from all I love
Fear that conquers my goals
I wish to be away from reality
Close my eyes, forget the world
forget the impressions I want to put on
Forget my flaws, my perfections
Just be me for a while
venting out my anger on everything
punish me for my faults
to accept reality and live in it
without dropping a tear
Is it possible?
No, or never
I do not know
yet I keep trying
like I do every day
but I have to live
Live and finish my life
like everyone else does
LIVE.
Did I do wrong?
Wrong things at every stage
the mistake of walking my way
leaving my heart with you
and walk into a life like a lifeless rock
living becomes painful
darkness witnessing the pain
that is unspeakable in the light
Life is beautiful with you
yet I chose a life that I could make beautiful
for others to live
leaving me in pain in disguise
it is like I live like a pendulum
atop a sharp stretch of knifes
that will take my life
as I fall off slipping away
My life becomes, a life for others
and not mine forever.
I do not want perfections
I wanna be completely imperfect
with lots of flaws
that makes me complete with you
I want to imperfect
so you make me perfect
I want to the lock and key with you
to let me imperishable in your heart
It hurts me every second
the breath without you
my world becomes suffocating
without you in me
Make my world perfect
Life without you is becoming impossible.
