Sometimes we do a lot many mistakes to land up in one truth and the real one. It might take minutes, months , weeks or years and sometimes a lifetime..

Few things which never mattered me in my teenage or my bachelorhood bothers me now. Few things which i neglected earlier becomes preciously important for me now. 

Thats life.

Learning from mistakes and getting  anything after pure desire helps us to realise whats stays with us and whats best for us. Sometimes the boring work we do …might mean to us a lot when we get busy and just wish we get a break. And yes ofcourse …when we are busy we forget to get a break…we ignore the small happiness we receive and forget to give he same.

Am not in a philosophical mood actually…just realised..its not late to know something on my own. Parenting is not as easy as we all think , its like we are handling someone , who look up to us to learn many things. WE teach them many things unintentionally ,and they learn those things quickly more than anything they need to learn.

My kids are quite smart enough, they have learnt many things..even without my knowledge ,am blessed to have them as my kids, because sometimes I realise the mistakes in my behaviour when my kids imitate it in front of me and I just get shocked and I tell them not to do so and make sure I don’t repeat it myself too.

Kids become our mirror like image , if we don’t nurture them the best way. 

I need to remind myself on these words again and again.

Whenever i feel down.. i just remember these words and its like ,magic for me. I feel more energetic , more happy   and feel better . 

Sometimes its more irritating to be at home, doing nothing than the monotonous household work and it leads to boredom , laziness (which already am having lots) , and lot of negative thinking , but everything goes off, when am with my kids, or when am cooking something special  , and when am actually busy with all work around. But its not always the same.

Everyday is not a good and bright one, sometimes i just feel like being sitting bored , doing nothing, but what to do when i starve and my kids starve, i can;t help …so i go the junk way even if i have lots of fruits in my home …sometimes only junk food can help me out of my hunger…I know its not the right way, but sometimes its like that, i guess everyone has a junk food day…

I know all these things will be a past one day , when am getting the right job , wherein i don’t have to compromise on my kids , I want something where in I can be with kids as well have a job worth lifting my self-esteem, something my parents  be proud of. Sometimes i think I can be a teacher, another moment i think i can be a blogger , another moment i think i should pursue what i have studied .. and all these confusions ..make me mad..seriously idle mind is a devils brain… and i don’t want to  be a devil..and not any perfect angel , but a lovely mom and a good daughter for my parents.

Always when you are down, with any fights or any depression, just remember ..there are people who are so unfortunate than us, so whatever happens in our life , if its bad, always there is something better at the end of the day to be for , as the sun sets for a beautiful night o come and a lovely sunrise to shine our lives.

I am so confused what to fill in my girls heads…to be more like a lady who obeys others or always fight for their individuality. 

What I want and what I should do (“according to our stupid society”) is totally a big mismatch…. don’t know what to decide.,,,,

WE parents make  our girls stronger, teach them a lot of cooking , give them a more confidence , teach  them to lead a life on their own wish , but in between ,driven by the hypocrite society , who treat girls as mere household , who think they drive their life with authority …..parents want their girls to be just nothing and listen to the elders, or may be husbands or father or brother ..or any male  who thinks they have full power in that girl’s life.

Why  do all want girls to be so obeying, why the society never gives a chance for them to be their own ,why all think a girl with proper individuality is too bossy or arrogant or too much to handle … I seriously don’t understand that part, does that really matter, if a man has his individuality the girl too should have. 

I want my girls to be a good at heart, should be capable to decide what exactly they want in life and be able to choose it rightly. I don’t want any other man to instruct them exactly what to do, I want them to have the proper freedom to do anything  on their own and not driven by instructions. And seriously girls are any appliances to come out with an instruction manual and not any wild animal to be tamed.

I  have heard many saying that “girls should eat everything ,they should not demand ” ..seriously whats that for, I guess boys should learn to eat everything and stop fussing about any other girls cooking , because they are the one living with some other girl and so they should get used to the variety in cooking .

Girls do everything out of love ,they want to make others happy so they sacrifice what ever they want to do , but they do find happiness in what they do, even if merely its just being at home…i know because am doing nothing now ,still am happy to be with my kids at home.

Seriously the status of women has to be changed …the mindset will never change soon..but wish it changes .